Then & Now

Noticed that....

some frens are better off being just normal frens but not close frens. the closer u get to them, the more they get on your nerves.

some frens you can only be frens with them but not business partners as working together might just screw up whatever yrs of frenship you had with him/her.

some ppl you can only be colleagues with but not frens.

some frens you like but never have the chance to be closer frens. Maybe u like them bcos u have not known them better.

some frens you can only establish platonic frenship with but never love relationship.

some frens you can only think of becoming lover with but not frens.


Y do I feel that I have been taken for granted and treated differently from what it was used to be? Perhaps its better to be treated as a super normal fren. At least I won't get to see any unpleasant sides. At least I am assured to get the typical politeness and agreeableness that would have been granted towards a normal fren. Rather than some ridiculous demands that have been unconsciously placed on me just because of this special status I am holding.


I rationalize that if a person can understand me,
-->he would be able to respect my wishes and decisions.
--->He would then be able to accept me as a whole.
---->And love me unconditionally.

When can I ever find such unconditional love?



It feels very very distant to me......

Maybe it only exists in fairytale as humans are all selfish beings.



I should get myself busy with other things from now...