Weekend break

Finally back to the comfort of my home!!! Next week 5 days camp to go!! AAhhhhh......

Probably too many nitty gritty details that I can say abt the camp which I will not say here. Got alot of talks throughout the camp to tell us the many divisions of PA, the functions and roles blah blah blah which I usually switch off midway. Dun like to listen to wat the goals and wat core values of the association larh. So idealistic. At the end of day, its just about putting in your best to whatever you are required to do, and if better, do more if you can!

Besides that, got team building games which I enjoy more. Kayaking at sea sports club too which is quite tiring but pretty enjoyable. But next week quite scary leh, heard one outdoor activity need to hold on to a rope and swing to another end and drop urself onto a platform one. If dun drop correctly, will fall into a pond. eeeekk....dunno can or not leh. Then every nite got project discussion as by the end of the camp, will need to present to a group of directors man. Aiya they are just making use of us to churn out new ideas to implement in the organization lar. dumb.

A fren asked me any cute guys around. Well 30 ppl in total. Around 12 guys here. Pretty good mix rite. Mostly in the 20s with some exceptions. So a pretty much young group lor. hmm... my definition of 'cute' is different from how some others use to desribe cute guys lar. It is not based on a physical attribute but come from within. Like I find one guy cute bcos he speaks in a very hokkien style, always laughing from ear to ear and very easygoing. He dun have to try to crack jokes and the way he speaks alr very funny. hahaa

Being in a camp, you have to socialize every minute of the day. Easy for you if you are an extrovert. For me, if i am tired or moody, I dun bother to socialize unless u urself come forward to talk to me. I feel that within girls, a certain sense of hostility can occur once impression is set. If you feel that you cannot click with this person, you will find urself avoiding or not taking the initiative to talk more to the person after that. I dunno whether some of you know what I mean. Thats why they always say that girls have a hard time working under a female superior cos there is this sense of hostility brewing in the same-gender relationship. This does not occur between a girl and a boy. Bcos of the innate difference between the two genders, there is a form of attraction that spark off naturally regardless of the initial impression formed. Its like 'I may not like you but bcos you are a different gender, I am curious and want to know more about you'. This then triggers further interaction. It is also of the fact that guys feel the need to take charge so they will take initiative to strike a conversation with you. Such dynamics does not frequently occur among girls. Funny. Then among boys, it seems different again. Guys bcum 'brothers' easily after sing song talk cock. There is less of bitching around as compared to girls. U know what I mean?

Alrite enough of that.....i am tired of typing la. Want to treasure this weekend fully b4 going thru another 5 days of camp once again..... Gambateh!

Little here and there...

Though its only the 2nd lesson of Salsa beginner's class that I have attended, I think I am liking it and can't wait to learn more of the fanciful moves soon! Yar currently taking up a beginner's class after being asked to join together with a fren. I now feel glad that he has asked me if not it will be dunno until when I will be going to take up this dance which I have been so curious about all along. Now I am already thinking what is going to be next after the 5 lessons that would be finished in a few weeks time. I really hope to continue.

Hope to take up any other dance classes like Jazz, Hip hop or exotic dance in the future. So pls ask me along for any of such if you need company to learn together! I tink dance is a source of good workout and entertainment for the self. I wish I have been more serious in taking up dancing when I am younger. But I still think its never too late to learn anything that you want. Remember that for every moment that you are hesitating, time is ticking away! So pls dun pause and consider any longer, frens! Rem someone telling me this: For things that you can do it today, why wait until tomorrow to do? Do it now! Feel the urgency of time. Nothing is ever too late or early to start!

Hmm...anyway just to inform, will be going for an induction camp for my work for the coming two weeks but will be back home in the weekends. Funny rite? Got orientation camp for work somemore. So off. haha. Hope to meet some nice ppl around esp new ppl who will be working in the same branch as me man. Nonetheless, feeling abit sian to be away for so many days with dunno how many other strangers. Cannot command the usage of my own time, waking up early, the amt of clothes to bring, cannot go swimming with my frens in the morning from den + other unspoken rules and obligations. lalalaaa.....aiyaah watever larh...anyway my motto for life now is to embrace whatever that is coming my way. Keeping an open mind!

You guys take care and hang on to whatever you are doing ok?

Here without you

Issit the physical affection, the sense of belonging, the need to be wanted and loved by someone special that we both are missing about?

If the feeling does not come from truly wanting to be with the person and no one else, I rather not go back to where we begin...



Bcos any other person can well fulfill those basic needs that you and I are looking for....it's only a matter of time and patience to wait for this other person to come along our way.


It hurts to be a rational thinker when I have to separate the components of love just for the fear that history can repeat itself...



It's so easy for us to get back together but is that what we really want?



Frienship lasts longer than love....

though the form of happiness can never be the same again.






Am I yearning for you or simply the feeling to be loved?







(A penny for your thoughts too, yokie. )

"Quotes of the day"

Upon telling a new fren that my sis is working as a model, her immediate reaction is classic:

"What happened to you????" - with big shocking eyes and wide gaping mouth that refuses to shut.
(oh pls... save that exaggerated look, wat do u want me to answer? gene defect...possibly??)


That led me to recall someone telling me this recently-
"Hmm...your mum and dad looks quite good looking actually, not bad....and its obvious that all the good genes get passed to ur sis."
(Hey phil, thanks leh.)


Not to mention someone ever asking me whether I do feel inferior in comparison to my modelling sis?
(ohhh..no one reminded me to!!!! darn.)


Then I rem a gal fren telling me this-
"Hey you look nice in skirts.......(oh reali?)...yeahz.... bcos ur legs are not thin."
(wwwwaaiitt....are you complimenting me or wattt??!!)



Luckily in life, there will always be some kind souls sticking by and saying nice things like-
"Actually I like your features more than your sis...you are one pretty gal already! "
(AAAwwwww.......)

Suddenly, the dark gloomy clouds seems to show a gleam of bright light....hinting to me that life is not that unfair after all.




I laugh to myself and life goes on...

Snap it!

Nothing to blog about recently so will just post 2 pics that I have taken in MOS few weeks back for u all to see. Just received the pics from Huimin and this got me excited all over again. hahaz.

If you have watched Superband, u shld be able to recognize who the guys in the pic are. Quite blur pics though.

They are cute! Pretty boys.






With Yokie and her friends.

The clearest photo of all bcos not taken by us...by those hired photographers from some company websites.

Stuck

I can't get out of bed today
Or get you off my mind
I just can't seem to find a way
To leave the love behind


I ain't trippin
I'm just missing
You know what I'm saying
You know what I mean

You kept me hanging on a string
Why you make me cry
I try to give you everything
But you just gave me lies


Every now and then
When I'm all alone
I'll be wishing you will call me on the telephone
Say you want me back
But you never do
I feel like such a fool
There's nothing I can do..
I'm such a fool
For you

[Chorus:]
I can't take it
What am I waiting for?
My hearts still breaking
I miss you even more
And I can't fake it
The way I could be for
I hate you but I love you
I can't stop thinking of you [last time x2]
It's true
I'm stuck on you

My love's a broken record that's
Been skipping in my head
I keep singing yesterday
Why we've got to play these games we play?


(Sung by Stacie Orrico)

Unpredictable

Steve Irwin has unfortunately passed away. The famous crocodile hunter cum wildlife explorer. Attacked by a stingray right in his chest.

The world needs more ppl like him and now there is one less of him.........

Aaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhh....felt such deep sense of pity and sadness after knowing this news.
He is such a great man who has enormous enthusiasm and spirit for his interest in wild animals. Yet this has to happen.....if animals have humanistic instincts, they would have loved him and not hurt him.






Pls take care of yourselves, friends! Don't want anything to happen to you all!!

Catharsis

Ppl who write blogs are narcissistic. I am one too. It's the outlet where I can get some attention from everyone to me alone. It is the place where I can say certain things which otherwise I dun get to share in normal circumstances.

Even without reaching the end of this year, I can truthfully declare my best song of the year is "Because of you" by Kelly Clarkson. I don't believe any other song can replace this climatic one in the next few mths to come, at least in my heart. I am sure some of you might agree with me too. I simply love songs that have climax which can make your heart cringe and make you want to sing loudly together with it. In my words, songs that can give you 'orgasm' is good.

Singing is a perfect source of outlet to outwardly express one's pent up emotions. I just wish I have a much better and nicer voice. Infact, any other musical instruments have the ability to achieve that. Even drama acting too.

It's a form of catharsis. Just like writing blogs.

Pls don't see me as one pathetic soul having so much pent up emotions that I wish to release. I may sound like I am but more often than not, I manage to be a rational thinker who don't self-indulge in own misery, if any.

lame quiz

Love is most important in your life. A high love concentration indicates that you want love in your life. It is very important to you and something that you strive to attain. Take this quiz at QuizGalaxy.com

Yes I am as boliao as San to go take such quiz during my lazy times and here is my result which differs very much from hers.

Aiya....the reason why my family proportion so low is bcos those qns pertaining to me not that relevant since my relatives dun reali live near to me so that prob explains the low percentage value.

In a long term perspective, I should think that career is the most impt to me since most part of one's life is dedicated to your work so its impt that u are able to cultivate an interest in ur job!

I wouldnt dare to say love is impt to me anymore after the recent letdown.