Pics and all

I quite like this blogskin so dun think will change for now though with this slightly new blog add that I have changed to.

As requested by phil, shall upload those pics that we took recently. Are you all able to save it from my blog or not huh? dun think so rite?? how to make it available for u all to save directly from my blog huh? tell me leh. I use photobucket to upload one so think cannot rite.

Yet another farewell to Jingya. Looking fwd to your return already, girl!




Phil with his chao beng look and JY with her seemingly teary eye.


I simply love the matching outfit of yokie and phil! Good job, guys! heheee




JY with her red hot cheeks simply after just one small glass of dunno what white russian drink that she ordered. Oh manz...


The boy behind me is simply deliciously cute.

Embrace

Yea. Can't wait for my work to start so as to get into the real mood of my new phase of life. Don't like to be dangling here and there, waiting for things to happen. Ya i have been offered a job after all the waiting time and interviews and dilemmas that i have undergone. Prob will talk more abt my job when i realli got started on my work in around a few weeks' time. So excited and apprehensive at the same time man.

For right now, dun realli miss school at all. instead feel relieved that i dun have to get involved in those bidding rounds and the purchasing of textbooks and doing tutorials. haha. well u guys hang on yar? u will reach the stage i am at very soon lar. so endure man!! work hard, enjoy and have fun lar then u wun feel that u are suffering alone.

wonder what i will do for the next few weeks man. definitely wanna brush up my hokkien which i dun reali know how to go about mastering it proficiently bcos i dun have the envt to learn it naturally. sad case. yar i want to master it well so that i can better cope with my job duties. hmm...will be going out with some frens whom i promise to meet up with too. haiz....but money wise i reali have to take note too cos will be living the next 2 mths on the last pay that I have gotten which is gonna be insufficient lar. sianz....money money money. if only they grow on trees....wahaha..

anyway can reali feel the presence and existence of frens who have met up with me to catch up and stuff these days. they are really there! haha. not invisible. thanks lovely ppl! neva reali felt this way in the past....oppss...hehe

after got a job, can then plan properly on the lifestyle that i want to lead. def wan to take some fitness classes to keep myself active or relevant lessons that are useful to my work or life. reali hope i will have the motivation den. dun wanna end up a routine lifestyle in the end.

yea. will keep an open mind now to everything that is going to come my way! Same to u ppl!!!

Life is really a gift!!

the game of love....

its not fun at all. its bittersweet.

i can never understand why some ppl can go play for so many times.

it can get you so high for one moment, and get you so down on the other.

indeed, theres a price to pay for this game. if u are not willing to pay to sacrifice ur personal freedom sufficiently, u lose the game totally.

it was game over for me in shorter time period than i ve expected. the only comfort is that at least i tried...

i kept thinking whether the cause of it was that i was an incompetent player but i was told that problem usually dun just lie solely on one.

like wat many have told me, playing once will make you a better and stronger player for the next new game to come... i believe in that and will be working twds this goal.

i told myself that for my next game, i will try to give my best to make it work out strong so that i will not need to experience another gameover anymore.

i now understd why some ppl like to play this game for just once in their whole life rather than trying a few. Cos each gameover is heartbreaking, painful and saddening.










during certain time of the game, i had my insecurities and uncertainties but never got enough clarifications or reassurance that can help to appease that. all i gotten was lukewarm responses and indecisiveness that make me feel even more disheartened.......

i waited for a twist in the fate of the game but it never gives me renewed confidence to move on. instead, it continues to reaffirm that most of my negative assumptions were right after all, given the action and attitude of the game...

i came to realize that there was in actual fact no strong intention from him to want to offer any form of reassurance to comfort my doubts which i have come to rationalize the possibility that something is wrong...

i learnt the ugly truth which actuali hurts me very much deep down. though it sets me thinking the whole night, it is what motivates me to want to be a stronger and better person...

believe me, i really dont wish for the game to end so soon but the process of playing just makes me feel that the most important element that i thot was present all along was losing its strength after all. i can feel it and it affected me. i want reassurance but it never came.

i found the courage to let go of this promising game by holding on to the belief that a much deserving player someday will replace me to play an even more exciting game with him while i shall seek for my new form of happiness all over again...










we took the easiest way out not knowing how to resolve the issues we faced. though it looks like its a mutual agreement, in my opinion, i feel more like its a one-sided wish .

some say we prob are still not mature enough to handle differences which are bound to exist in any relationship. the level of maturity wasn't sufficient enough. if so, wat a shame.

or maybe in today's society, there are just too many choices and temptations that are luring us from our comfort zone to explore the new and the fun out there...if it is, den so be it.

my mum think the cause is due to the former...i thot its more to the latter from what i see...talk abt faithfulness....its bullshit. humans are just so greedy and selfish by nature. i feel like telling ppl esp those with X and Y chromosomes in ur genes: if you think you are one who will be easily attracted to the oppt sex in the process of making new frens, den you had beta restrained yourself from getting a partner in the first place!!!!! it must never work the other way round whereby you got a partner and restrain urself from making new frens of the oppt sex bcos subconsciously you are afraid that you might be unfaithful when the situation arises!!!






nearing breakup, couples tend to focus on recalling evidences from the past to support their case and this further continues after breakup to make oneself feel that the decision is indeed a right one. happy memories now only serve to hurt and thus will be erased...







building back my self esteem to regain myself back in full force... no more hard feelings. scold me if you want...

motivated to work twds a better and happier me for the next phase of life to come!

to all my attached frens: must persevere in ur relationship as long as there is still love between the both of you!

to all my single frens: Kambateh! i really hope to see you guys having found your true love before i do! that is enough to make me feel blissful alredi, reallly!!!!

love is still in the air!

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New phase

Never did I know effective communication can be so hard to achieve. To think that I have always thought speaking one's mind is easy. It's really not.

No two persons are similar. We each have our differences. But exactly how much differences is just too much to take?

To give up or to persevere? Let him go and each to his own?

We live for ourselves. But for the most of it, we are actaully living to the expectations of others. Others...him...they....

Should i wait for a possible 2nd job offer or just accept the first? Forgo the first, I may just lose the 2nd. Sometimes, timing can just be so cruel to us.

If only life is really just live to eat...




I hate making decisions like that.
Cos I dunno whats best for the two of us.
I dunno whats best for me.
I dun wish to think.
Dun wish to decide.

I have always hoped that there is such a logical thinking computer system that can help ppl to weigh issues and decide for them the better route to take for the best outcome. But there again, is there such a thing as the best outcome?

Office no-politics

After being requested to stay week after week by my boss bcos of some delay of hiring a perm staff, I have been here for near to 2 mths as compared to the initial thought that I will only be here for a few days to a few weeks then 1 mth then until now. What an irony.

I am lucky to having met some nice people here who brighten up my otherwise antisocial life in my enclosed office cubicle. Thanks to the opportunity that people from other departments need to come find me to get corporate gifts and borrow camera that I got to know that there are actually many other humans in the different departments of this company. hhaaa..

Among them, I oso get to know the existence of other temp staff and subsequently become lunching partners with. With them around, I get to have ppl dropping by my cubicle to chat with me once awhile, go pantry for milo, eat Hello Panda biscuits and even drop email to go toilet together! For once, that playful colleague even drops a mysterious note on my table while I am not around to ask me to guess who she is! Then there is this super friendly colleague who cant wait to lunch with me someday so as to -know more about me- in conquest of some -secret mission- of hers. Among other perm staff, there is one kind colleague who even introduced me to websites that she thought I would be interested to apply jobs from. And for that, I recently got a job interview and offer after applying with that organization. Thanks to her recommendation man. Probably might talk more about my job searching process next time round or something... Den not to forget one who intro me to web-based messenger that I can use to chat during work. Win already lor..

Thats why I say that if not for all these human interaction that I get to enjoy during my office days, I think my office life would be dead boring for me, with that kind of -workload- that I am under. Literally bored to the death of me. Thanks goodness. Tomorrow should be officially my last day if there is no further changes to be expected.

Thanks to Jenny as well who was my occasional lunch partner from time to time but seldom now bcos its either she got company lunch or I already agreed to lunch with my colleagues nowadays, and shiying for that two to three times that we managed to meet up with too. haha