"Some of the cliches we so love to use and hear..."

"Nothing is impossible. You can be what you want to be. "

Oh.. is that reali so? If you inherently just don't have what it takes to be what you want to be, can you still be who you want to be? Probably not...

E.g: So many ppl want to be superstars. But look at them....majority will probably fall under the "cannot make it" category. You know what I mean...when you first hear them sing or see them act. We know how to pat and compliment them for their courage to try but inside us, we know they can never make it on the real stage no matter how hard and long they try cos they just lack the natural qualities to become one. As realistic as that.


"Think positive. It's not the end of the world."

Then I rather it be the end of the world so that all my problems will not need to be solved and be gone together with everything and everyone.

Nah. I mean..

if it's so easy to think positive whenever you want, den you can go becum goddess in heaven!
Who don't want to think positive? I am sure those depressed ppl know this philosophy of life very well at their finger tips too but they just can't help thinking negative! Isnt it?

I think it just goes down to a very impt factor: Personality.
Some ppl tend to think more positive while some more negative...

From here, it links me to the topic on extraverts vs introverts. Are extroverts generally happier individuals than introverts? I want to leave it to my next post to talk more abt it.

"Live simple. Be contented with your life."

What is live simple? How simple is simple, you tell me? With the high cost of living still escalating and will continue so, it is a difficult task to enjoy reasonably well if you have little money. Peer comparison may be enough to make you think that your life is not good enough as compared to the so called 'norm'. Your socializing activities got affected when you cant live up to the lifestyle of your surrounding peers. You may not mind living simple but the social context you are in is the one that acts pressure on you. Bombarded by surrounding social temptations that signify the joys of living and by a certain desire to indulge in the luxuries of life, its not easy to wanna live simple afterall...


With the desire to think more positively in life, I shall leave a postscript to end my post...

Though there are certain things we cannot presumably achieve even however hard we may try, the process of achieving it will nonetheless be a fruitful experience for one. There's nothing to lose. Who knows, during your journey of exploration, other new better opportunities might just open up for you! This does happen!

Linking back to one of my previous posts, it's reali based on one's own priorities that define one's own contentment. Sometimes, its reali the little things in life that are enough to make one's living in this world a worthwhile one... Trust this!

No cliche...

"I'm not a girl, Not yet a woman. "

The physical age of 21 doesnt make me feel like a grown-up at all. I am still bearing the mental age of say, 18 yrs old? Especially so in the case of social and emotional intelligence, and probably also in my general knowledge (feel even more so after watching Sg's Brainiest Kid).

Pathetically, the only moment when I do feel like one is when I am driving alone. The feeling of freedom on the road, in control of an adult toy, is a sensation that I never get to experience when I was younger. So the ability to drive now is by far the only way to make me feel like an adult.

If not,
I am still being seen and treated like a girl at work, among family members, relatives, neighbours and even hawker auntie and taxi driver.
I am still dressing up like a teenage girl, instead of looking like a young mature lady.
I am still talking like an ignorant girl who appear to know very little of the outside complex world.
I still like to sulk and grumble abt going to school, doing test and exam.
I still have problems coping with my negative emotions that shldnt arise in the first place. (one of the aspects of emotional intelligence)
I still dun feel competent enuff to face future challenges ahead of me.
I still yearn for immediate gratification like a kid for most things like the consumption of food to the witnessing of fast results.

Sometimes, I even feel ashamed to reveal my age when asked, cos I have a feeling that the person must have presumably guess a much tender age of me, after basing on my behavior and speech pattern.

It isnt especially a compliment for me to hear ppl say, "Ehh you dun look like Yr 3 " or "You dun like your age at all leh". Ok.. Dun get me wrong, I don't hate ppl saying that. I just feel neutral larh. Some ppl get high hearing such comments. I don't. Just neutral lar. Probably they are referring to my looks but I usually take it that they are using my overall social behavior or other indicatiors as the reference points for judgement. If so, that is pretty sad to know that I am not behaving like what a 21 yr old shld...





[Last but not least, the realization of what it takes and feels to be truly in love has taught me some lessons to being an adult, which I am still learning. Being able to feel like a woman yet treated like a girl is certainly more than what I can ask for. Thanks dearie for givin me this extraordinary feeling... ]